The older kids and I have been working through the book of John together this summer. Top five of my summer highlights for sure! We’ve been having some robust discussions in our pursuit to know God. The fresh way they see scripture shows me a fresh way of seeing God.
Yesterday the kids and I were talking about what our hearts and response should be towards the homeless and Abby kind of randomly wondered out loud, “but Mama, how do you know what God is telling you to do?”
We talked about the importance of waiting until we know for sure what God wants from us. But waiting actively - waiting for an answer while pursuing God. Not jumping ahead of God’s plans.
We all grabbed our bibles and found 1 Samuel 13 where Saul, in fear, went ahead of the Lord’s plans and took matters into his own hands thereby stripping himself of the kingship.
We talked about how impatience and fear leads to pride (thinking we have the answer) and self centeredness (you don’t know what you are doing, I know what I am doing). We talked about how far this is from the purposes and plans of God.
And there, in the middle of my teaching and leading, God reminded me that I was guilty of this very thing! Josh and I are making some decisions for one of the kids and it dawned on me (or the Holy Spirit nudged me) that we were trying to make the decision without consulting the Lord and before it was clear what the Lord wanted us to do.
Thank you Lord, for using my five year old to save me from myself. Forgive me for trying to make decisions without you.
I wait on you.
